Ground shaking lessons.

For me it was when I found some one to mentor me.

At the time I didn’t know what the old guard was about.

So it was a funny situation at first, as he kept trying to persist me to go look somewhere else.

But I broke him down, and he said, fine.

And then he explained everything to me.

-Chuckles softly.-

But I’m glad that he did.

Because what he told me changed everything.

Took me from that nieve boy, and started the man up.

Cause he took me to the sideline, and told me truth.

He was like.

Look, now that you know that about me.

Let me explain what’s the problem before you even get going.

You see the submissive right there?

Can you actually be what you are, without her?

Well, she’s got to survive too.

And she won’t just stay with you, if she can’t be what she needs to be, with you.

And then he went into the truth about not just keeping to a social disconnect, A character.

Stead, how to still keep an honest mind about the reality of all that’s going on.

All while still keeping the function of the demeanor that’s required of me.

And I’m thankful for that.

Cause I’ve even seen other peoples kajira come and go.

they don’t get that.

I’m not just in control of myself.

im in control of another person too.